I am not a competitive person. I don't really care if I win or I lose, I'm content either way.
This is how I thought before I ever stepped on stage. I fell in love with it.
The lights are too bright to see the crowd. Heart is racing, legs are shaking, face is twitching from smiling. I could hear my family and boyfriend screaming my name & number. I hoped for muscle memory in my posing routine, because I'm in front of judges now; not a mirror alone.
I'm in a itty bitty bikini, having my body precisely judged and compared to the women next to me. Months of hard work and discipline were put into this moment.
Every gram of food, every rep, all the cardio sessions. How bad do I want it? Was it all worth it? Can I win?
I took 2nd place in both Novice and Bikini Class A at my very first show, Infinity Fit Championships Indianapolis, November 12, 2016. I competed against 20 other women in each class. It was humbling to say the least. I surprisingly wasn't even nervous on stage, I had a lot of confidence in myself. I had held myself accountable for years in the gym, working up to a point where I was ready to compete. I teamed up with my coach 22 weeks before my competition, and I gave this prep my all!
I made incredible friends at this show; these strong women are absolutely amazing and share the same lifestyle goals as I do.
The best thing about this sport is that I was able to achieve a certain aesthetic goal. My body changed in so many ways, and I had to trust the whole process. I learned so much during my prep, and I loved challenging myself to reach this goal. I tested my limits and mind set. I pushed myself physically at the gym, and mentally in the kitchen. Accountability and hard work was put in every single day. I couldn't have done this without the support of my family, boyfriend, co-workers, friends, and coach.
Competing changed me, I became a stronger person. Being competitive against myself, as well as against others is where I excel. I am so intrigued with this aspect of fitness, and I will continue working hard to bring a different and better version of myself each time I step on stage.
I can't wait to see where the rest of this journey takes me.